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Is it week 9 already?

Posted by: bloggerunknown on: February 8, 2010

I am so happy today! I just found out that my final audit is approved. I am definitely graduating in May as long as I pass all my classes Winter and Spring quarters. I am pretty confident that I will because it is week 9 and I still have Bs in all my classes. My best friend just told me that she just got into FIT in NYC. I am soooo happy for her. Now I feel this added pressure to get into graduate school. It would be so amazing if I got into NYU. Then, me and B could be besties in the city! It would be amazing to go through the next few stages in my life with my best friend. Even if I do not get in NYU, I will still go and visit her. I might even consider staying at her apartment when I go to New York instead of at Stan’s mom’s place. I am not sure how his family will take that but we will see when the time comes.

New Layout

Posted by: bloggerunknown on: February 8, 2010

Like the new layout? Me too. :-D Super cute. Super…ME!

Next Year…

Posted by: bloggerunknown on: February 8, 2010

Man, I went to that Superbowl party and didn’t win anything AGAIN. lol At least the Saints won. They haven’t won in like sixty years or something like that. I don’t know. Maybe they have never won. I try to keep up with CNN but I forget some of the details. Anywhoo, I think that was my last College Superbowl game because they getting cheap on us. They did not have the lazyboys this time! WHAT? I don’t ever sit in them. I just think they look cool. They gave away tons of prizes! PS3s, 360s, an iTouch, Dr. Dre Headphones, $100 in food debit, 36 in. LCD…blah, blah, blah. I didn’t win it.

I am excited for next year. Next year, I will be 21 years old and I am going to the Ladies Only Superbowl Part-ay! In my town, they throw this ladies only version of a superbowl party every year in a nightclub downtown. They play the game somewhere in the building but the real show is the male strippers. I can’t wait. I have never seen a male strip show but I am a fan of large penises so I am sure I will feel right at home. If only my birthday was a couple months sooner. Well, it isn’t until March so I will have to wait until 2011. I have been waiting to go to this thing since I was like 15. LOL Next year, it is ON! I told my boyfriend I was going like three years ago. I say it every year like, “Dag, I wish I was at the Ladies Only Party instead of here…” Next year, I won’t be saying it. I will be doing it.

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Superbowl Sunday

Posted by: bloggerunknown on: February 7, 2010

I have not decided whether or not I am going to the Superbowl party. It is a really nice set-up and all but I do have work to do and all the boys will be gone so the house will be quiet. I don’t like football but I love the Superbowl party. It is just an American Tradition. I feel bad skipping it, kinda…The school always opens up the gym and the decks it out with four massive projector screens that they run the game on. The people sit in the bleechers. They also have these lazy boys set up on the floor, right in front of the screens. They have leather and regular soft cushions. Papa Johns hooks up with them every year and brings hundreds of pizzas at the top of each hour and they bring boxes and BOXES of chicken wings at the :30 minute mark of each hour. They also have a free raffle where they give away TVs, iPods, digital cameras, DVD players and such during the commercial breaks.

I mean, it is just amazing-ness and it is all free! Students and faculty can bring their families and as long as there are seats (or you are willing to stand), you can come. You don’t have to be a football fan to go. It is just great because you can get free food and you might get lucky and win a TV! Plus it is way more fun to watch with a huge crowd of enthusiastic football lovers. People bring out their jerseys and face paint. It’s a good time and when else can an adult get away with wearing a football jersey outside?  I mean, come on…lol

I might go. I love going and this is my last year of college. Gotta live it up, right? Not too much…Speaking of living it up, I had a grand ol’ time last night. A bunch of people came over Stan’s house to….well, I don’t know why they were there but I didn’t have anything to do so I stayed. They turned on some music, played some drinking games….good times. We played 10 drinks. I remember freshman year, we used to play 10 fingers but I guess now that everyone is 21 and officially alcoholics they have to incorporate liquor in EVERYTHING. So we played and I had to drink to damn near everything (because I am a whore apparently and I have done it all) but somehow I still was fairly sober. I guess my tolerance is higher or I was drinking with some light weights…but I am only 125 pounds and I don’t really drink…I digress! It was fun. We played the ABC game too but since we have gotten too old to play it the right way we added some rules, some liquor, and made the topic sex. So you have to say a word that matches the letter in the alphabet but we are going backwards in the alphabet (from Z-A) and you must say it within 15 seconds and the word must involve sex or you have to take a drink.Yeah.

We did all that drinking and pre-gaming to go to the party and ended up not even going inside because it was stinky in there. What a waste of a great DJ. Everyone just stood outside and smoked but I don’t smoke and I wasn’t about to drink anymore so me and Stan went home to watch porn. Not really, it was just a movie that was about sex. Don’t you hate movies “about sex” that don’t show sex or nudity. WTF? I was reading hustler magazine one day and they had a funny joke in there about how stupid those kinds of movies are. You can’t put the word “sex” or “porn” in the title of a movie and not show tits. I’m just saying! Speaking of such, why does hustler magazine have words in it? WTF is up with that? I don’t want to read when I pick up a porno. That would be like Busty Cops 3 having subtitles. I would be majorly pissed!

Anyway…enough rambling.

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Eggs

Posted by: bloggerunknown on: February 5, 2010

OMG I killed a chick embryo last night. In lab we were asked to make a primary cell line from a chick embryo. I will not disgust you by showing a picture but let me say it was real. Realer than anything I have ever done. I know some people might say, it is just a chicken! I know but to kill that chick while it was still kicking is crazy. The embryo had legs and pre-winged arms, a head, neck, HUGE eyes and all these parts were easy to identify. I have a whole new respect for doctors and vets because I had to talk myself through that.

Phew! I got through it though. I did not get sick. There was no bad smell. It was just kinda hard because the thing was clearly alive. It was not like you had to pull out a microscope to see the motion. The heart was still beating after I cut it out. I know I have dissected pigs and lamb brains but those animals were long gone. Not that it wasn’t weird. It is always weird to tear through flesh with a scalpel. At least the pig had it’s eyes closed. I know the tongue was sticking out but that experience did not put any fear in me; but that two inch embryo gave me the heebidi-jeebidies. Worse part is I had a raw egg yesterday morning and another one five minutes ago. LOL

Leveling Out

Posted by: bloggerunknown on: February 4, 2010

I finally got my schedule in order! I am taking Medical Pathophysiology, Histology, Hybridoma Techniques, and Human Genetics (don’t ask lol). It took my forever to find these classes and they only amount to 13 credits. I am not looking for anything else though. It was hard enough to find these. I would have rather taken Advanced Immunology than Human Genetics but I don’t know if I would be able to manage three lab classes and my research that I do outside of class. So I won’t push the issue.

More good news! I will be able to pick up some hours during the break. For Spring Break I did not have any plans of going anywhere. My boss asked me to stay here and work. It is about 24 hours that will be available. I am excited. I plan to save that whole check simply because I did not expect to get that money in the first place. That one check is enough to pay for my GRE test. So, I will use the money I am saving in my account for the application fees. I am hoping my upcoming classes don’t require books but judging from the titles/descriptions, I doubt it. I will probably have to buy a lab manual for both labs. So…we shall see.

My Genetic Exam 2 is today. After I finish with that, I plan to catch up on my lab work a bit and read all the chapters I have been neglecting in Medical Terminology class. I can begin to prep for the GRE again tomorrow. I need to work on the classes I am getting grades for first.

Oh and just found out the approximate cost of the Florida trip is $500.

Sometimes Communication is NOT the Answer

Posted by: bloggerunknown on: February 3, 2010

I realized this morning that Stan and I are not going to agree on most things. We have similar values and beliefs but our passions are different. He seems to be passionate about nothing and I am passionate about everything. Anything that I take the time to care about, is something that I am passionate about. We spent the last two nights and this morning arguing about race issues. This happens sometimes because there is racial tension between our families with him being Jamaican and me being black. It is such a conversation. Neither of us agree with our families’ ideas about these things but some how it still turns into an argument.

I want him to agree with me. I want him to say that he totally feels like I do and everybody else is wrong. That is not always true but I hate when he sits there and plays devil’s advocate. I don’t need that at home. At home, I need him to be supportive of my ideas, goals and dreams. He thinks I am idealizing and the world will never be the place that I am aspiring for it to be but I was not taught to think like that. I was taught that there are obstacles that will get in your way but you aim high no matter what. If you do not make it, that is alright as long as you tried your best. That is what I want to hear.

What really made me mad is when he said me and his roommate are always saying we want to give back to our communities and be mentors to teens when we graduate but we probably won’t. Why would he say that? We always talk about how we want to go back to our home towns and direct the youth as we were directed by our mentors. I actually want to do that and I can’t wait to get started on it. How can he sit there and say I won’t? He was like, “Oh that sounds all well and good but that probably won’t happen. People always say that but they never do it.” Screw Him. I was so mad about that because I know tons of people who do exactly that. That is how I was able to get here. Just because he lived in a bougie, disconnected community does not mean that everybody else lives that way.

I have decided that I probably should not talk to Stan about certain topics. It is just not a good idea. Certain things he does not want to hear about, like natural hair, black history, black issues, or anything else BLACK I’m still kinda mad but I will get over it. I have to understand that I need to find friends who care about these issues. There are people that do care about these things and my efforts are going to be more useful when talking with them.

That is all.

Feeling Inspired

Posted by: bloggerunknown on: February 3, 2010

I went to the first Black History Month event at my school last night. They were showing the movie The Untold Story of Emmett Louise Till. My stomach sinks just thinking about it. Man, that was heavy on my mind all last night. I had never seen the movie. It was actually a documentary and it was so enlightening. I had heard the story of Emmett Till a few years back. I was actually listening to a Kanye West song (Through the Wire) and he mentioned Emmett Till. I had to know what that meant because I always heard the name thrown around but never knew what they meant and why the reference was used. Well, I googled it and a article from Wikipedia came up. I grazed over the story and thought it sucked but it really did not hit home.

Last night, I finally got it. All my life I have heard horror stories about slavery and civil rights and the struggles of minorities in general but seeing it on screen really sent the message. All I kept thinking was that this happened to my people less than sixty years ago in this country. I find that mind blowing. When I was younger and I heard about slavery, I always thought it was such a long time ago. I wondered why people could not just get over it. Now that I am at this age, I understand that slavery was abolished a long time ago but people were still treated like slaves up until less than a century ago. People were still being treated like savages and much of that generation is still alive today.

My grandmother is only about 56 years old and when I was a child she told me how she remembers Jim Crow Laws and how white people lived in separate places from blacks. She grew up in that era. She was alive when Dr. King was shot and she was there when Civil rights movements were taking place. So it is hard to tell somebody that lived through those things to just get over it. I think it is amazing that she is so calm about it. In fact, I applaud her because today she can sit down with all groups of people and hold conversation and laugh like none of that ever happened. I think that is incredible.

I also think it is fascinating how much the racial climate has changed in this country. To sit back and watch those videos of people saying “nigger” on camera is crazy. I get so shocked when I hear that. I almost have to rewind the tape back like, What? Did he just say what I think he said? Did he say it like it was nothing? How can he think that is alright? America was a different place back then. I’m not saying that racism does not still exist. I am just saying that we have made progress.

I am glad that African Americans have made such an effort to get past the past and look to the future. I am thankful for all the people like Emmett Till that gave their lives so that I could get an equal education in a predominantly white school and be fortunate enough to make it through four years without dealing with racism. I find it incredibly sad that he gave his life for us and he is not remember or recognized by and large in our community. Emmett Till should have been a name I heard before 2004 in a rap song. My boyfriend should know who Medgar Evers was. Those people should be praised right along with MLK and Malcolm X.

I’m Such A Boy

Posted by: bloggerunknown on: February 2, 2010

I was able to help my classmate. I am glad I decided to help her because she is very smart and we have a lot in common. She was telling me that she loves lab too! She said she loved Virology class last quarter too! I was so shocked. I usually feel like such a dork for being so obsessed with cells and diseases and thinking that stuff is cool. She said she feels the same way. That is amazing. I have such a hard time connecting with the other minority students on anything to do with school. If we are not talking about partying or how hard school is, we do not have anything in common. Even the Biomedical students do not connect with me because they hate lab. They all want to work with patients. Everyone wants to go to medical school. I want to go to medical school too (maybe) but at the same time I feel like there are so many more benefits to having the PhD and it’s a hell of a lot cheaper to go to school for. They will pay me! Winner!

I don’t know. Made me think. I like her. She is cool but I don’t know how to make friends. Whenever I make friends in class I can never take it to the next level and become friends after class. Hmm….Seems like she would be cool to chill with though. She is the same age as me, she loves make-up, she loves hair, she loves fashion, she loves biology, she is in a long term relationship with a boy but she experiments with girls. She seems like me but shorter. LOL I should find a way for us to connect some how.

You know I have not made one female friend since I have been in college? Well, one but I don’t know how that is going since she is away this semester. I still have my BFF from middle school. She is the greatest but I did not make one high school or college female friend that I still have today. Well, maybe one more…I don’t think so though. See, I don’t even know. That means I do not. I don’t know why but I have somehow alienated all the girls. I have a lot of guy-friends though! Guys love me. They consider me one of the guys actually. I have always been one of the guys.

When I was a kid, I did not have any girls in my family around my age. There were a couple but my family has many more boys than girls. So I was raised with my male cousin (my favorite cousin by the way) since we were born because we’re a year apart and we lived in the same house for years. Well when he got to be about 8, he made some friends in the neighborhood that were boys. I was always around and so were they, so we were basically together everyday from about age 7 until age 16. I think that is when I became one of the guys. I have been told I have a masculine personality and some masculine opinions. I think I do but I also think that people don’t fit in little boxes. It is more of a spectrum. Well, I am somehow in the middle and I always get stuck with more male friends than female. Maybe I just feel more comfortable around them. Well, I do and when I do spend any time with females, I get so nervous. I get all jittery, I drop things, I sweat, breathe heavy and my heart beats fast! It is like I’m on a date. LOL I’m weird. So weird.

Week 8

Posted by: bloggerunknown on: February 1, 2010

Ok so I didn’t get half of my tasks done this weekend. I am not nearly done studying for my Genetics exam. I did not go to the hockey game and I did not go bowling. I didn’t go bowling because one of the girls got sick. I did finish my Genetics homework assignment. I got 100%! That is so crazy. I can’t believe I did so well. I know this is the second time but Genetics is hard and I did not keep the answer sheet from last quarter. So I really had to work those problems. One of the girls from my class is meeting me today and I am going to help her figure out how to do the homework. I really don’t want to but I feel bad letting her fail because I failed this class once and it sucks.

I am planning to study my butt off for the next three days until the exam. I should be fine because when I reviewed the material yesterday, it all looked familiar and easy. I just have to commit it to memory. The only thing that is challenging for this class is the fact that it is all based on memory. My professor described it as “vomitting everything you know on the exam page.” This is true. The exams are short answer and fill in the blank. No multiple choice. No crib sheet. Not even a note card. First exam I got an 84% which is a vast improvement since last quarter’s first exam (I got a 50%). So If I could just maintain a B in this class, I would be happy. I am still working toward an A but if I got a B I would understand.

So  far I think I will be able to get an A in Medical Terminology, B in Genetics, and probably a B in Tissue Culture. That is a 3.25 GPA.

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